Back again at the Backyard
of My Thoughts'
from where I've learned to
walk'
But couldn't walk away.
I tried everything made
plans, Demanded certain way outs,
Wished a lot, Thoughts about Endless Desires,
Did Reincarnation on daily
basis in My Heart,
I tried to make come True'
but failed at Everything'
and then I Tried to Cut
them out from My Heart,
I Possibly did that but
that Effort
some where took My Inner Self
Which Ultimately made me Terrible'
I utmost killed Myself.
I Forgot the Difference
between Wishes and I
So then all happened which
was Suppose to be,
I broke My Heart I Died in
It.
Just because I can't be
with the one I loved the Most
I can not Deny Myself.
I'm A Soul' A Body with
Organs
working in Proper Functional Orders'
Sickness attacked Me It
became Worse'
I gave Myself Time to get
Cured but somehow
My Mental Health Got Effected.
I have always thought
about alternates to keep on Going
If plan “A” did not
worked' then plan “B” and “C” and So on'
But in order to be
Accepted by Others
I somehow Ended My Plans.
Which wasn't A big deal
for others
but for me It was Everything
I could Rely on to be
Happy' actually Awfully Happy.
But I turned out to be
Sad, Anxious and Worse version of Myself
Which I saw in My Mind and
Denied hundreds of times.
And we can not be like
others as for me I'm so different
My Perceptions are totally
based on my Intuitions
Which cause Me Trouble but
somehow They workout for me in a Right Manner.
Thinking over and over on
same matter
Positive, Negative, Hell
Pathetic'
And Everything Stayed in
My Mind nothing Ended'
couldn't spell It the way
It should be to be at Ease
Then I realised Finally'
Let's Surrender' not
Ending but Leaving the Concern and
moving On with few Pen
able words and A Cup of Tea'
I May Feel Good at Some
Time
but for now It's Ok to Feel Fine.
I'm not being Active in
Writing Lately'
I might have lost My
Passion or maybe Myself '
I hope it won't Lasts for
Long.
If I'm living through A
Certain way It could be Right or Wrong'
But No One is Allowed to
Pass on Statements
They don't Owe Me.
Sometimes Pouring your
Positivity to People
close to your heart with
Empathy' could Drain your self
and then Negativity could
Attack You'
You might gonna regret It
later '
like wise Myself.
I'm Done at Creative Ideas
I don't know where I'm
stuck
or had Moved on But where exactly'
Guilt of Doings and
Happening of Life
Again It's A sign of
Complain' which leads to more Negativity
And with A Negative Mind
You could never have A Positive Life.
Stop just' Stop right
there.
Stand up, Walk against no
matter about the Odds'
They are not gonna Lasts Forever'
Neither this world You are Surrounded by'
My thoughts are somehow
Respected and Acceptable for Myself'
And I guess this is more
then Enough.
Tomorrow will come with
other Ideas
And I'll be A different version of Myself.
Life have A Long way to Go
It doesn't Ends here.
Carry Yourself Elegantly
and Beautifully because
The day you won't Love
Yourself you will realise'
You have never been Loved
unconditionally.
Am I Done or yet all to
come and Go'
We all belong to A Certain
End
Everyone is Performing
their part and Going away with It.
To where have You been Stuck Nida
Let's Just slightly take A
Step Forward'
(Soul talks) It might be
hard But Trust Me'
I have Got this only way
for You.
"Surrender And Cherish"
Your Life could be More
Fascinating
Then You could ever have
Imagined.
